April 2026 Update

Family Is Everything Right Now

As of 4.10.2026 a lot has changed even from I swear to God a week ago. I went ahead and bought my Grandfather a ticket to fly to where I am and told him to come, dealt with my Mom not wanting that for who knows why, she is very intentional though. We are having a great time but I just had an expensive vacation with my girlfriend + HOA is very overdue + Taxes grrr so I am going to be not tight per se but for sure not wanting to spend too much money Lol.

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The Money Situation

I decided to hold off on paying taxes as why give the gov money, although their toxic money printing habits are terrible, it does support many peoples lives.

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Work — The Motivation Problem

I keep doing the best I can at work, there is a lot of movement but my motivation comes on and off at an absurd rate. One week I will get more done than ever, and my revenue showcases it, then the next I come in late and do not spend enough time on what matters most.

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People Over Productivity

My main things on my head right now is I would like to spend time with my fellow humans and enjoy them, especially family and Girlfriend. I will be honest, I am far too content (which I think is a good thing) with isolating myself with my Girlfriend, we could do absolutely nothing together and I would be 10/10 happy and I am far too focused on productivity and relaxation, I LOVE doing nothing and it's a very bad trait holding me back from winning more.

One area I have been failing at is donating, I used to donate about $100 a week primarily to a church but also homeless, I worry that I am too in love with myself/ego and therefore have not been wanting to lose my pride and give to the ones in need.

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Playing Ocarina of Time for the First Time

I am playing the Ocarina of Time for the first time and I finally felt young and old as I had to use a guide 90% of the time. I think my mindset is that I do not want to get frustrated and not finish the game, although I would love to explore and what not, I play games for the story nowadays.

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Privacy Journey Status: Not Great Bob

I wanted to mention that my privacy journey is not so hot, I do not use my lightphone, I use windows, I use edge, drive a car with a freaking camera in the interior, ugh. I love the idea of privacy but man implementation is difficult. I like to think my privacy journey is more of what I do and don't share with others. IRL I am very conservative with information, I was going to shred some documents and I was told to put it in a bin and I refused and found a shredder and did it myself - more actions like that. I figure as long as I keep learning and winning, I will be safe from even bad personal life decisions, which frankly I do not make too many.

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Where I Am With Faith

My religious journey is also at a semi-halt. I do believe that there is a God, I believe that the Jewish God is that God. However I fall short because I question Jesus's role, if you read the Q bible which is much closer to Jesus than most of Luke, John etc. he only mentions him being of God once. He is extremely wise nonetheless and I treat him mentally like a prophet in my head. The OT interests me more however most of it is historical and wisdom. It almost feels like I am turning more to what Thomas Jefferson was and that was more aligned with deism.

Any good student would study, and the more I study the less convinced I am by the New Testament primarily. The OT I feel is more accurate especially with the archeological findings but even then we do not have access to original texts nor do I know Hebrew but I have read that NASB for example is very close to the Hebrew meanings. Read my other blogs on some more of my thoughts on this.

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Sidebars

Sidebar, I would honestly be terrified if I saw or encountered a being from another plane. I don't trust the darkness or my closet for this reason Lol.

Another side bar, I discovered another Mr. Pibb and he may have more unique music taste than myself and I am disappointed maybe I can be his friend.

Brother moved close by as well so need to hang with him as well.