April 18, 2026

I am very happy to get back into my website, I think I have ADHD and I do this at work too — I will constantly take a look at my work website and personal website with a feeling of I think proudness.

I just really like how both turned out. I like having character.

I view everything from a time point of view and am constantly thinking what is the best use of time.

If you have not watched — to my dearest gentle readers ;) — watch my YouTube video on time: youtube.com/watch?v=h7xNCfcdtos

It's wonderful that the video garnered such a strong audience. I need you, others, and myself to see the value and importance of time. Everything else is fairly unlimited — time is not.

Now that I think about it, my goals seem to be to make sure my family thrives and I do not let anyone down. Everyone has very high expectations for me and failure to me is not meeting those expectations — which begs the question of how healthy of a motive that is. At the end of the day it is one of my motives.

Tom Brady said a quote that I really enjoyed — he is always working to be better than the man in the mirror. That is a big motivator for me.

I always stated I do not work for money. That is not a primary driver. My primary driver is just to be better than myself, to be the best me I can.

The issue is it's not really well defined. Many say Jesus Christ is the best person ever, some say Michael Jordan, some say Sam Walton. In my opinion you cannot go higher than God — that is pinnacle, the one that started it all.

Although my views on Christianity have evolved, there were many great aspects of it that I feel drove me to be a "better" human being.

Not to self-idolize — but I was giving a ton of money to church. The church would actually use it to help people: 15,000 meals served a month (or a week, I cannot remember). And to homeless people all the time.

Now I do not attend church or give to homeless people nearly as much as I did. That's unfortunate.

My views are so so very unique in this day and age regarding religion. It feels lonely — but I bet I am miscalculating how many people at the very least feel the same way, even if they do not come to the same conclusions logically.

I like the verse — it is better to have 4 quarters than 10 dimes. I am not perfect but I do care for those 4 quarters greatly.

What makes them my quarters is just the simple fact that they care enough to ask how I am doing or even go out of their way occasionally to talk. The pureness makes me unbelievably happy.

One of the rawest best moments I have ever spent with people is over a cup of coffee. My friend / roommate have had some phenomenal memories just over a cup of joe. I give him a large discount just to have my friend live with me.

Sometimes I miss my friends back in Oregon whom I no longer talk to. But we have such little time and I just had to make a choice on where to spend it.

My Grandfather coming here was great. 90% great. The main issue — he's a very materialistic man. Most of his self-worth and net-worth seems tied back to his home rather than spending time with his family. I pray this changes, and I think it is changing after this recent vacation.

My Girlfriend and I's relationship is so beautiful. We are genuinely a perfect fit for one another, she hits the right notes with me and vice versa. I love that I can just be myself with her.

My girlfriend and I tried pickleball last night and was genuinely surprised on how lovely of a sport/hobby it is. Very easy to pick up — like badminton — and got her and I both moving which we def need to do more of.

We wanted to go hiking today as well so maybe try and fit in both today :P My Brother is coming to my Mom's house so maybe I will drive by after a hike and spend some time with them. That's a good use of spending your time.

I am at Ganondorff's castle in Zelda OOT waiting to beat it with my Brother. I think I will do Majora's Mask next — I play games for the story.

I miss staying up super late and playing Morrow wind, Sims 4, Civ 3 ugh. Life goes on. Video games won't get me to where I want to go — but they have been such an integral part of my especially early years that it's hard to not find it as a safe place.

I would spend 7 hours a day in my teen years playing video games and it was fantastic. But when I look back I find my most favorite moments were the time spent with people, not the time spent on a game. That is always on my mind when I play.

I wish I had more gamer friends — I do not get me wrong — but I neglect those friendships in some aspects as I just don't really want to play. Lol how hypocritical sounding. Maybe it's that damn phone.

Today I want to watch some rom-coms or that yes movie with Jim Carrey. I just love those movies that invoke feelings.

Our new customer sales are skyrotting — the trend line is literally straight up while keeping our customer acquisition cost down. I am beyond blessed with getting all of this moving.

I am having to design our website to cater more towards ChatGPT though — that is becoming a much more prevalent method of acquiring new customers.

This week I have some training to get my Lean Six Sigma Green Belt. This is to become a more best practice kind of man, and more well balanced for when I become a CEO.

I have Marketing, Sales, R&D inherently in my blood and learned — but I want to be a fantastic ops and finance person as well.